New Events...

The fear of death isn't something that I normally have but it hit me hard on Thursday. There was a fight outside my house involving two kids. I nearly got stabbed trying to do the right thing. I think I got to handle situations better... When it happened I reacted on instict and hit him in the throat with the bridge of my hand and he went down like a oak tree in a fierce rainstorm... It was a bad mess after that. The agressive kid with the screwdriver took off when I was checking the other hurt kids for serious injury. I had to call the boys parents but they didn't speak English, lucky for me, the kid was able to talk.

Other then that, life has been good. I've been out and about doing things I haven't done in awhile and it's a plus. It makes me feel awesome. :).

For once, I took down my barriers for someone. I volunteerly removed the walls around my heart. I've never done that for anyone before, even for people I thought I loved... For once, I feel comfortable, safe, and real. There's no coming back from this feeling. It's like swimming in a warm ocean of warmth, hopes and security.

I did something today without flinching. Which tells me a lot... considering how the last few weeks have been for me. I was sitting on a bench preparing for the next test when a really pretty girl actually tried making conversation with me. She was training for a nurse here at UEI and was on her last module. Anyway, she asked my name, shook my hand tried to flatter me, then she asked me if we'd like to go out for some lunch at Fudruckers. I gave her an, "I'm sorry, I can't." without even hesitating... I just find it strange how life changes constantly. If this happened 3 weeks prior to holloween, I would never have said that. Which led me to this thought, "Life is a fast paced world... things change evolve and move forward. Sometimes, very quickly, It's how you react to those things that define you. There are many possibities in life. So, it's also how you move forward which determines where life takes you." I'm happy where I am... and I wouldn't change that for the world.

Circumstances have...

Circumstances have changed. I need to move forward at a quicker pace. I've decided to enroll in UEI to get a quick headstart to get out of Petco. It's only 8 months to graduate from there and they'll get me a job for my technician work. After that, I'm probably going to go to school and work to get a BA in networking or computer hardware design. :)

I've never trained so seriously lately. It's wierd. I'm pushing myself well beyond what I normally do. Dumbbell Squats, Dumbbell weight training, Jumping Squats, Bareknuckle pushups, and heavy cardio/shadow boxing. I feel alive. I have something and someone to protect now.

I've been training for broken rhythm lately. I gotta learn to change up my pace and rhythm so my opponent can't anticipate my movements...

Kensei

It's been...

It's been awhile but I'm back in action. My eye is healed up. My heart is great. And, I'm ready for action.

Lately life has been good. After my surgery everything has turned around on me. I'm starting to get stronger again. The stress of life is sorta becoming tolerable. I've been slowly getting back into working out. And, from there I hope to rejoin the martial arts community. I want to get back to it so badly. :)

I feel good. I mean real good. I almost feel like I can reach the stars and roundhouse kick the moon. I think personally it's a certain persons kind influence on me. I really enjoy her presence and I hope that continues.

Darkest Night has been put on hold. I've decided that my writing will have to wait until I get my life back to where it should be. I need to get on the road. I need to get to a comfortable position in life in general. So a better job and a more secure lifestyle.

I went to the DMV a few days ago and found no Driver's Manuals in English. I can finally get back on the road since I got my sight back and they don't have a damn booklet in english. :/. My dad warned me but I thought they had some more in stock by the time I got there a week later. They're excuse, "We only stock a few because of our region." So they only stock ones in spanish in quanities? WTF? LOL. I complained and left.

I was thinking of doing another set of Video Blogs? What do you guys think? Should I continue?

Well, I'd better crash. Nite Bloggers. :)

Steve